Inexplicable

How do you lose something you never had;
break something that was never whole;
miss something that was never there;
want something that was never yours?

How do you fit eternity into three days;
fight for something you can't win;
regret doing the right thing;
silence your loudest thoughts?
...

A little on the bubbly side, but most of the words seem to do:

"Tattoo" - Jordin Sparks

No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
My head in the fire
sooner or later I get what I'm asking for
No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed. The truth is a stranger
My soul is in danger
I gotta let my spirit be free to
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back, got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking ties
When I looked in the mirror
Didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back, got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you.
...

The rain coldly pelted my face as I went to and from the house and car moving boxes and bags of belongings. A hood was offered to me, but I declined; the work itself was distraction enough from the relentless drops. Besides, soaked through to the bone, I was hoping for some other excuse to stay home from work in the morning.

My whole entire being is exhausted from the events of today.