Dedication

Song of the Moment: "Beautiful Disaster" - Kelly Clarkson

He drowns in his dreams
an exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
more heaven than a heart could hold

And if I tried to save him
my hole world could cave in
It just ain't right
oh it just ain't right

But when I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
such a beautiful disaster

If I could hold on
through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth
as strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
more damage than a soul should see

And do I try to change him
so hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
baby hold on tight

I'm long for love and the logical
but he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
waiting so long

He's soft to the touch
but frayed at the ends he breaks
He's never enough
and still he's more than I can take
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He's magic and myth / as strong as what I believe / A tragedy with / more damage than a soul should see

Listening to this song today, I couldn't help but think of my friend, the Gypsy when this line came up. His soul has seen so much tragedy over the last two months that it's hard not to hurt for him. I'd like to believe that he's strong enough to make it through this horribly tough time in his life, but to lose so much and to be beaten so badly in the ways that he has been is too much for one person to bear alone--and yet, there he goes. There he goes, but only just barely. I have my own friends and my own support system so that I know that I'll never be truly alone, but as far as I know, he has no one. No one. That is a tragedy within itself.